New Years Resolution Update

I have been horrible at this blogging thing but I do have to say that I broke my new year's resolution 2 weeks ago when I had a complete breakdown at work and I updated my coworker on my TTC efforts and how I though I was pg for a day because I saw 2 lines clearly on a opk the day before AF was suppose to arrive, I got AF on schedule and I just had horrible mood swings while AF was visiting. I really question if I had a m/c @ 4 weeks? This cycle makes me question it even more because I know that you have the tendency to be really fertile the cycle following a m/c and I have had tons of EWCM and have not seen any EWCM for 6 months! I guess I will see March 22 to see if AF comes or not but I will try not to keep my hopes up because I am trying not to try.