When did I become crazy? Or have I just always have been a little off? I seem to need an obsession to talk about constantly with my coworkers about. My thing right now is eating healthier so far I have eliminated milk. I can only handle small changes at a time.
I just started a new semester at school and really going to obsess about it. Up to last semester I was carrying a 4.0 until I lost focus and got an A-. I understand that is still a good grade but this is the first time in my life that I have actually done great. I never got really good grades in high school at first I got B's but I was not satisfied with that and slowly let them drop. I barely passed chemistry. I think my Chem teacher felt bad for me going crazy and gave me a D so I would not have to take the class over.
One crazy thing that I did on Saturday was I shopped for "my" baby. I was at BRUS and they were having this huge sale and I got a 6 piece bedding set, lamp, mobile, wall art, blanket, extra valence, sheet, and a blanket sleeper all for $69.13! The sale was last Fri & Sat for 75% off all clearance bedding! I got a great deal but sadly I have to add it to my collection for my future baby I have yet to conceive or adopt. Which I have come to terms even though we have not been TTC for a year I do not what to do any medical procedures until August or September this year. I would like to investigate adoption if we still have not conceived by Jan 2010. I would want to wait that long because it will take a lot of money and I will be done will my 2 yr degree in May 2010.
Hey fellow TTCer....I just found your blog thru an ivillage link and had to say hang in there. What you wrote sounds so painfully familiar that i had to let you know that you are not alone. I am also finishing a 2 year degree that I will be finished with in the spring. I too feel like there are times when I am losing my mind. My husband and I have been TTC for 18 months. We have not pursued treatments yet, partly b/c we are in school and partly b/c it scares me to death. Mostly I'm scared that we will fail. I also have to say that now that I've been at it for a year and a half, that it was just as painful at 6 months as it is now.
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