Reality is Back

T and I went out of town for a 2 night all inclusive resort. It was so nice to get away and forget about life at home. We really needed to have some “us” time. I know I said I would not talk about TTC but I never said I would not write about it. I do not know how we will ever conceive we just do not make time for each other and BDing. Even by going away we did not get much BDing in. I just do not understand how young teens can explore just one time and get pregnant. I can’t stop thinking about having a baby. On vacation every couple seemed to have a young baby or tot. I could not fully get away from TTC. I do not even know if I o’d this month I just have not seen any watery or egg white cm like I have normally but starting today I started to get cramps like AF was coming but it is way too early. I refuse to use OPKs because it is too late. I just have to wait.