Ummm...AF?

So after testing and getting a BFN & drinking wine I still am waiting for AF. I had ips upto when I poas and then they went away. I have been spotting since the day AF was supose to arrive but no AF. So no symptoms of being pg once so ever I want to test again but I will wait till this weekend to test again. Last week my chest was sore and ichy and I had cramping but it all went away. Today my DH asks if I had AF and I told no. Then he asks me how do I feel.... I feel nothing if I am pg shouldn't I feel sick, tired, or have sore boobs? I am tired but that is nothing new I am always tired.This is now my longest cycle and we did not time bd nor did we bd much at all this month I don't understand.

Implantation???????????

I woke up this morning doing my usual morning pee and saw brown spotting. At first I thought oh no Aunt Flo is coming but then I realized it was a week early and it could be a good sign! Implantation spotting? I hope it is implantation because I am so sick of Aunt Flo making me feel so miserable and helpless. Getting pg is completely out of my control and I do understand it is in God's hands but it is hard to give up.